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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.14 12:58:00 -
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Lately I have been very sad. The War Room is no longer as entertaining as it used to be. People have gotten soft, and I sense that I may be falling victim to this as well as I have now started my own diary. My friends have moved on and I left to be lost and all alone. So here I sulk, reading the works of Edgar Allen Poe...
Quote:But as in ethics, evil is a consequence of good, so in fact, out of joy is sorrow born. Either the memory of past bliss is the anguish of today, or the agonies which are have their origin in the ecstasies which might have been.
I recognize the good that has been done for this game, yet I remain a bitter vet. I used to find so much joy destroying my enemies, now only sorrow remains. I remember all my previous victories, my friends, my talent, those drunken nights of past bliss and all I feel is anguish. Those times are over. I had such high hopes for this game of what it might have been, could have been. Even with it's drawbacks, I thought this game had potential. CCP advertised this game as unique with an eve link... I never cared for it. The true uniqueness was my friends, the drama, the risk and loss of it all. Can I conquer it all? When we reach the top, who will betray whom to further themselves and their own agenda. This was not just a simple cod shooter. The politics of it were real. The drama was real. The struggle was real. It was fun to watch the story of Dust 514 unfold. However this story feels like is is coming to an end.
I often complain about how most stories in mainstream media usually end with a happy ending, yet when I encounter one.... Could it be that it is because I am a part of this story that I complain so? Could there be some sort of flaw in my point of view? Is there a better way for me to cope or approach this ordeal?
Throughout dust's history, I have seen many brilliant ideas on these forums go ignored. It would seem that the problems that are cried about the most are the only ones addressed, and while I understand that they want to keep the the player base happy... CCP must realize that they cannot make everyone happy. Plagued by constant buffs and nerfs that has held back development of this game. Plagued by Glitches. Plagued by moronic ideas implemented by CCP thinking they were being innovative but only served to fustrate the player base. How can a company manage to **** off 90% of the player base with every update? How could we blindly stand here disappointed update after update?
I have had many brilliant ideas of my own but I held my tongue. I think to myself... What is the point? What is the point of all of this? Why should I put so much effort into an idea, a something that will eventually become nothing. As I am ignored and the game delves further deep into the abyss.
But... Alas! a savior has been born.. but born too late? With the future stamping down unto the past. Legion continues as an object of myth that is slowly eating away at dust's core. How can something that may never see the light of day destroy what so many have revered? Through my eyes... Legion lies only in the darkness. Unseen, and untamed. A darkness that has shrouded Dust. Just like the cycle of the sun and the moon, the light slowly fades only to be replaced by shadow and eventual darkness.
So here I stand lost and all alone. But am I truly alone? Could there be others who feel just as I do? Others that also feel lost and all alone on this damned game? Can this community find unity in solitude?
And so my stomach grumbles, and my train of thought slows. Distracted as I am... I shall leave you with this.
Quote:Men have called me mad; but the question is not yet settled, whether madness is or is not the loftiest intelligenceGÇô whether much that is gloriousGÇô whether all that is profoundGÇô does not spring from disease of thoughtGÇô from moods of mind exalted at the expense of the general intellect.
- Just a few thoughts from inside the mind of a crazy Taco guy.
Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.14 13:21:00 -
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1. I never read. Those excerpts... are just a very rare thing for me. I literally spent the last half-decade not reading any kind of literature... other than what I have read this past couple of months which have only been like 2 or 3 books.
2. English and literature has always been my worst subject. Always my lowest grade or score but could be a result of me not really trying.
3. I never write, I can't even read my own hand writing.
4. When I do type something, I usually talk about food or write code. languages only a robot or stoner would understand.
With that said... I have considered writing a book on my spare time and I refuse to let such things hold me back. I wrote this within a span of 5 minutes. No thesaurus or dictionaries, other than those excerpts. Just stuff off the top of my head. I definitely could have put in more effort but I wanted to see what raw talent I may have sleeping inside of me. If I have any talent at all.
Rate validity of my thoughts?
Rate talent for writing?
Asking for peer reviews from a bunch of trolls must be sort of like creating a pizza taco... Kinda crazy, but it fits just my kinda crazy perfectly.
Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.14 15:37:00 -
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Shiyou Hidiyoshi wrote:If it is any consolation, I read more of that than B1ack Ice's posts.
I think I made it to the second line
It actually kind of does.
No matter how bad I may seem.... at least I am not black ice.
Black ice must be the new term for hitting rock bottom.
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.14 16:42:00 -
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Jaysyn Larrisen wrote:Interested in blogging? Seriously...we can get you set up on the www.biomassed.net website. I read your OP from a totally different perspective after your visit to the Podcast on Sunday. You actually hit on a lot of the topics we were throwing around in the show.
Thanks for the compliments but...
You are probably overestimating me. LOL.
I would be interested but I am not really sure what I would talk about.
Ripley Riley wrote:Immortal John Ripper wrote:Rate validity of my thoughts?
Rate talent for writing?
Asking for peer reviews from a bunch of trolls must be sort of like creating a pizza taco... Kinda crazy, but it fits just my kinda crazy perfectly. At some points, like in the paragraph that begins "But... Alas!", you come across a bit trite. Overall, you seem very sincere in your tone and that tone stays constant throughout the piece. You did get off topic, but this is meant to be an "internal monologue" so I'm not judging you too harshly for that. My advice: Write often and about everything that comes to mind. Also, read more, if you don't already. Dictionaries and thesauruses are not your enemy. Let people read your work and become accustomed to hearing feedback; then take neither praise or criticism too seriously. Write poetry. Even if it is terrible, write it anyway.
Thank you for the feedback Ripley. I know I still have alot to learn. 
I know Dictionaries are not my enemies, but like I said I wanted to test my raw talent. I also wanted to test the current state of my vocabulary. It's not very often that I get to practice it... It has also been many years since I have been to school. I wanted to see how much I retained. I will put much more effort into my next little piece of work just so I can compare the before and after. So far, I feel like I have not lost too much of my mojo.
As for books, any recommendations?
So far I have read: Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code, Johnny got his gun, and Holy Blood, Holy Grail.
Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.14 19:11:00 -
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Wow guys, thanks for all the compliments. If only there was a tears of joy emoticon.
I was expecting to get trolled alot more than this... You have all encouraged me to continue to practice my writing. I really am enjoying this new hobby of mine.
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.15 06:53:00 -
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Killar-12 wrote:This may be the highest quality OP in the war room, and with the great shining posters of old this is no thing to say lightly and many others who have made occasional shiny posts.
The number one thing CCP can do is do meaningless interaction, which at least means they seem like the interact just on pointless level (IE "That sounds neat", or "that doesn't fit into lore")
With all the people poorly copying me.... I see what you mean. I guess having a brain is not a requirement for posting in the war room. I would think that the stupid people would be the ones being trolled.... not the other way around. smh.
Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.15 07:37:00 -
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Killar-12 wrote:Long Evity wrote:This thread made me throw up a little near the end. I'll make a thread that will make you puke...
It's black ice. She killed the mood lol. Now people are afraid to tell me anymore nice things!
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.16 03:30:00 -
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Everything Dies wrote:Immortal John Ripper wrote: As for books, any recommendations?
So far I have read: Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code, Johnny got his gun, and Holy Blood, Holy Grail. If you liked the Dan Brown stuff, read some James Rollins-- has a handful of stand-alone novels and ten books in a thriller/mystery series (similar to some of Ludlum's work with the Bourne series) that take cutting-edge science and creates "what-if" stories out of it. Best of all, in the Sigma series Rollins even summarizes what is "real" and what is (currently) fiction at the end of each book.
I liked the dan brown stuff the first time around... The second time around I was already used to his style of writing and the story became predictable. It was the same story just rewritten a different way. Angels and Demons = Da Vinci Code basically. The story changed, The characters changed except for the main character, and the setting changed but it still felt like the exact same story lol. I have another book by Dan Brown called The Lost symbol but I have not read it...
I do however love thriller mystery. I'll check out James Rollins. Being a Tech Nerd.. this sounds like I may just love this.
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.17 02:53:00 -
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TerranKnight87 wrote:I actually read now and was way off.
Enjoy the read anyway.
Yes I kind of feel the same and your op doubles as a perfect troll while remaining completely legit against black ices post.
20/10.
Haha you should have read before you posted the first. You should know be better than that by now! My posts are always 20/10. ;)
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Immortal John Ripper
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Posted - 2014.10.20 12:59:00 -
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21yrOld Knight wrote:Boom! 21yrold Knight Posts
Boom! Day Enhanced.
I guess I should call santa and let him know I already got my present.
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